There isn't much to be said in this one. I met with the doctor who will more than likely be the guy I speak to form now until Pip is born. He is more than willing to use the ultrasound photos from up here and he wants me to go to Baltimore every four to five weeks.
He is concerned about the distance as the due date gets closer. He said, "If you happen to go into labor at 30 weeks, we are just going to fly you down anyway." Nothing is easy, aye.
This doctor also believes that a C-Section wouldn't be the best way to go for me. I looked at him like he was crazy. He then continued to tell me that there are women who have a normal delivery that are much worse off than I am. I expressed to him that there is no way I am going to be able to push this baby out and he continued to tell me that there is an assisted delivery method in which the mom doesn't push at all. I mean this all sounds great but what am I supposed to do just lay there? He also isn't necessarily interested in me being induced. What am I supposed to do? Make my delivery happen. He reminded me again and again that nothing is set in stone and that just because he thinks this way would be best for a delivery doesn't mean his colleagues and Dr. Kelley will agree with him.
I appreciate his honesty though. He was kind enough to admit, which I obviously heard before, that they really have no clue what to do with me because I am no where to be found in any textbook or Google search. Of course, if you Google "awesome" I am sure I will pop up then.
So, needless to say, I am anxious. I would never really consider myself a control freak but I definitely would say that I like to have some sort of plan. I begged the OB to at least compromise and let me be induced so that I do not have to have an anxiety about going into labor, and then hitchhiking via helicopter, in Scranton.
I have to go back on May 17. I hope that there is some sort of plan lined up by then. Meanwhile, I will go for another ultrasound (to hopefully get some measurements) in Scranton on Tuesday. I know that many people believe I should be enjoying this time, but I cannot lie I am not. I just want October to get here so I know we are both safe and sound.
I just have to trust that the doctors (who do work for the #1 hospital in the country) will know what to do and are going to come together to provide the best care for Pip and me. I have to trust that the Universe couldn't steer me too wrong, right? And would never leave Pip without a mom or me without a Pip. At this point, I love him already so I can't stand the thought of him not making it.
Onward and upward.
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